I know I've grown up when I worry less and I appreciate things more. This is the best year ever. It's just the second month but I can feel it in my bones. Good things are right in my path just ripe and ready for me to pluck. Now, I know that being patient and being determined can bring you places.

I've always felt that I was not pushing myself to the limit when it comes to my talents or my abilities. I've always had this thing about not being the center of attention. I choose to shy away from compliments and when I was already working, responsibilities. I realized that I should stop from thinking that I can't do as well as some people. It is sometimes frustrating when you see some people who act like they know everything and they should be praised for every little task like nobody else could do it better. When in fact, the person right behind him or her can do it a hundred times better without thinking of the bragging rights he or she could get from it. Well, I am the opposite. I am scared of trying things out and doing things my way for fear that I will get criticized. But what is there to fear when you're young and you have the world opening its arms to you. I guess it's time for me to step up and show people that I am no bimbo. I am brimming with excitement. I feel like my spirit is jumping up and down, doing cartwheels while my body is sitting up straight in front of the computer. I used to be scared about making mistakes and getting laughed at. Not anymore. I will make mistakes and learn from them. I will let people laugh but bounce back higher than anybody else could. Someday, Pearl will be a much better person. When that time comes, I will have the last laugh.

Augy and I had a fight a few days ago. It lasted for about three days. He dropped by my office to give me a box of Krispy Kreme doughnuts. A making up present. Wasn't that sweet? I am thankful to have him. He always considers my feelings and always listens to what I have to say (including the curses). We're growing together (not in size okay?) and learning things together. I am glad that we're more mature now. We talk a lot about every little thing that irks us and we spend a little of everyday chatting about mundane things. I've realized that communication is really important in a relationship. You shouldn't just talk about the really big, monumental events in your life. You also share stories and anecdotes that you had on a particular day. I love it when Augy and I laugh over the phone. I love it when I'm preparing for bed, snuggling under my blanket and then he calls to share a joke or two. It just makes me feel all fuzzy inside. Yes, our relationship doesn't have that kilig factor anymore but as Erika said you know that you love somebody when you can't imagine a day without him. You can't think of an instance when you don't want to patch things up because you know deep inside that you simply cannot let go of that person. That person is an important part of your life. You may not feel kilig when you see him but just thinking of him (even when he's not around) makes you feel happy. And that came from Erika. Can you imagine that?! Haha!

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