Wednesday, November 28, 2007

Deep Pain

The deep pain that is felt at the death of every friendly soul arises from the feeling that there is in every individual something which is inexpressible, peculiar to him alone, and is, therefore, absolutely and irretrievably lost. ~Arthur Schopenhauer
We weren't close but he was nice and friendly to me. The last time I saw him was in March 1999. I never imagined that I wouldn't see him alive ever again. When someone you know dies, regardless whether you were chummy or not, it would pain you. I've never felt this sad. The last time was when my friend from Ambergris, Avanae died.
In a quiet school like Chung Hua where almost all the kids are Chinese, I've never ever thought that anything tragic would happen to any of us. Not my schoolmates and definitely not my batchmates who I used to see everyday. When Augy told me that he died, an image just flashed into my mind. It was like seeing Jason right in front of me walking with the straps of his sports bag tucked on his shoulder.
Wherever you are, Jason, I hope you're happy now. Vengeance is mine saith the Lord. That man will get his just punishment.
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a picture I took from his Friendster account. The only picture I could find that perfectly shows him like he was back in high school.

feistylittle bitch
11:26 AM

Sunday, November 25, 2007

Update on Fun Times
(october 2007)
I haven't blogged for ages. I feel like a baby who's taking her first steps. I have so many reasons on why I neglected my blog for this long.

1. I barely had time to do normal stuff like sleep. What more blog on a daily or even weekly basis.
2. I feel sooo lazy.
3.My computer hangs or freezes like crazy. I'm even writing this down on an old journal first because I can't type on Microsoft Word for more than 15 minutes.

I've been through a lot lately. Stress, sickness and boredom. The kind of boredom that makes one jump out of the window. Well, close to that. I've had instances where I felt like smashing my computer at work after staring at the screen for a long time. That's why I'm thankful for the rare times I get to spend with friends.

I met up with Carlo last month. I was supposed to meet him the day after the Glorietta blast but I was so paranoid that I stayed home the whole weekend. I asked Augy to accompany me to Robinson's Galleria. On the proposed date, I was aghast to find out that Carlo ended his shift really early. He had to wait for me for hours because my shift ended at 5am and I had a meeting until 6am. I hate making people wait for me so I went straight to Market! Market! to meet up with Augy. We took a cab to Galleria and headed to Gloria Jean's as soon as we got off. I couldn't find Carlo outside so I rang his phone. I received a message from him saying that he was inside the coffee shop. I excitedly went inside and found him sitting near a cutout of Katrina Halili. I introduced him to Augy and we started on a long conversation about our common friends. After more than an hour of chatting and taking pictures, we bade Carlo goodbye and headed off to eat breakfast.

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They say one can't choose his relatives. Sigh. Sometimes I wish I could have a choice. My two little cousins are pains in the ass. They tormented me for a week. A weekend with those two is hellish enough. So you can imagine how hard it is to have them for a longer period of time.

My aunt decided to have Quincy and Jeof stay in our house with their yaya during Quin's sembreak. It was timeout from school for my brothers too so they had to endure not playing computer games when those two were wide awake. Kit carried his PS2 to my parents' bedroom and locked himself inside for hours while Gem had to contend with playing when our cousins were napping. Quincy broke her wrist a week before her visit and the doctor put her arm on a cast. That didn't stop her from wreaking havoc in our house though. I belly danced and surfed the net right after I get home and before they wake up for breakfast. Once I turn my computer on, Quin would be ready to press the keys incessantly until I go nuts and just retreat to my room for some peace and quiet. She would pound on my door nonstop until my lola would tell her to stop.

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Gem with Jeof and Quin

My aunt went to our house a few days before Halloween. My uncle came a day later. We decided to go to the Enchanted Kingdom. I had work on November 1st so we planned to go the next day. I skipped the product integration meeting after my shift and went straight home. I knew that I needed to get lots of shut-eye before going to the amusement park. I only got to sleep for about four hours before my lola woke me up. I hurriedly took a bath and I ended up bribing Kit just to come with us. We prepared spaghetti, garlic chicken, rice and biko for dinner, wrapped everything, packed extra clothes and boarded our AUV.

Quincy and Jeof slept until we got to Sta. Rosa while the grownups exchanged stories. I was quite excited about going to the Enchanted Kingdom after so many years. The last time we went there was when I was in college and my brothers were smaller than me.They now tower over me and it was fun having my cousins with us. After all, kids appreciate things like that more. I know they needed all that space to run around for just a day. They're usually cooped inside the house. That's why they have all that boundless energy.

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Waiting for tickets

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With Quincy

We started on the kiddie rides. I took pictures while my uncle and Gem rode along with the two kids. After the rides, we decided to hop onto the Up, Up and Away ride. Jeof and my uncle rode on one balloon while I rode in one with my brothers and Quincy. Jeof enjoyed it so much that he refused to leave when we decided to go to the AUV to eat dinner. Gem and I sneaked into the Roller Skaters and had one go before meeting them near the exit. Jeof hit me with his tiny fist when I told him that we would go home right away. He was standing in the parking lot waiting to be served some chicken when my dad joked about driving home. He screamed at the top of his lungs and sprinted back towards the gate. Kit chased after him because he might get hit by a passing vehicle.

After dinner, we went back inside where we rode the Wheel of Fate. Erwin rode with my uncle and two cousins and I went with Gem and Kit. A few feet off the ground, Gem suddenly declared that he is scared of heights and Kit told me that he felt like jumping off. I almost hyperventilated in fright. My cousins had the time of their lives though. We could hear them shouting our names and laughing. Whenever the wheel turned and they would catch sight of us, they would wave and scream. We saw Jeof jumping and my uncle had to hold him tightly because he wanted to lean over the railing. My brothers told me to take pictures so they wouldn't notice how high we were from the ground. I became photographer for the night. I used my phone and Gem's to take snapshots of them! I only took two solo photos of me and one with Gem. Gem asked me to play some music from my phone. I told him that I have a song he would like. I pressed some keys to get to my Music Player and played 'Drop It Like It's Hot'.

Gem: Wag yan! Drop it eh!

He nervously asked me to change the song.

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In the Wheel of Fate

I swore never to go on a ride involving heights with them again. I didn't allow them to ride the Space Shuttle because Kit had fever and Gem was jittery.

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Walking with Kit

We let Jeof run around while waiting for the fireworks to go off. He ended up spanking an old woman in the butt and tormenting two little girls who were eating ice cream. When the fireworks started filling the dark sky with light, Gem took a video using his phone and I kept pointing out the beautiful colors to Quin who stood transfixed beside me.

We found Jeof huddled behind the concrete bench in fright in the middle of the spectacle. My aunt held him in her arms so he wouldn't get too scared. After the fireworks, we took our cousins to Rialto. The usher asked Jeof to leave because he's still too small for the ride. Gem told us not to look at him when he passed by our seats because he might cry. To our surprise, he stopped walking when he and my uncle got in front of our seats. With puppy dog eyes staring up at us, he said in a small voice, "Hindi puede". Then he walked down the stairs to get to the lobby where my aunt and his yaya were sitting down. After the show, we found him waiting outside. He rode more kiddie rides with Quin while my brothers and Erwin lined up for the Rio Grande Rapids ride. I had to sit near the exit because they left their phone with me for safekeeping. When I couldn't contain my impatience, I asked my mom to go with me to the souvenir shop where I bought candies for my cousins, a keychain and a car sticker.

I had to go back after seeing that they placed two stickers inside the bag when I only paid for one. It turns out that the other one was free. While walking around around, I saw Gladz's brother and his girlfriend. I waved at him before heading back to where my lola was sitting down. It was already past ten when my brothers got out of the Rio Grande. Gem was soaking wet while Erwin and Kit were dry. We were all tired but happy. My cousins fell asleep on the way home. They didn't wake up until the next day. The rest of us heated spaghetti and ate before snoozing. I crawled into bed exhausted but happy. I had lots of pictures to look at until I dozed off.


feistylittle bitch
11:15 AM

Monday, November 19, 2007

Two-Day Beach Holiday

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Every time we walk along a beach some ancient urge disturbs us so that we find ourselves shedding shoes and garments or scavenging among seaweed and whitened timbers like the homesick refugees of a long war. ~Loren Eiseley

feistylittle bitch
10:03 AM

Sunday, November 04, 2007

Early Christmas Wish
I am wishing for good health. It's something that I am struggling with nowadays. I am unable to blog as much as I want because I easily get tired. I make sure that I get lots of rest or else I'll feel really sick. I'm crossing my fingers that I'll feel a lot better to do the things I love.

feistylittle bitch
10:45 AM

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PEARL
26-year-old bitch who dreams of being rich enough to do everything she wants when she wants...
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LOVES

good books. sumptuous food. interesting conversations. travel. beaches. makeup. beauty treatments. music. road trips. educational tv shows. brilliant women. fashion and beauty magazines. romance. junk food. desserts. sunrise. cool, foggy mornings. lots and lots of time to snooze. relaxing weekends.
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HATES

hypocrites. bitches who have no originality. people from the past who just cannot shut their trap and stay in the shadows. creatures who find happiness in the misfortunes of others. assholes definitely.
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happiness. beauty. love.

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