Silver Lining
I have dealt with depression for about three days or so. The kind that makes you weep while staring at your computer screen at work, the one that makes you wish to just stay home in bed and sleep your worries and fears away. I don't know what hit it me but last week was terrible to even think about. I wanted to quit working (so what if I had bills to pay and plans to fulfill that entailed saving and scrimping) and just take a rest at home. The afternoon breeze and the sunshine that greet me whenever I wake up would make things worse. All I wanted to do was sit on the couch and watch television, drink fruit juice and observe my brothers as they watch movies, surf the net, eat and talk on the phone all day. It may have been caused by stress. Burnout. This month would mark my fourth year as a working young adult. I am exhausted. I am depressed.
My mood changed for the better last Friday. There was a silver lining to my dark cloud after all and it felt good to not feel so sad even if there weren't a lot to be happy about. I just snapped back to being positive and bubbly. I know I have so many things to be thankful for. My family, friends and my (oh-so boring) job.
To celebrate my oh-so simple life, I had breakfast with Augy at Heaven & Eggs. He wolfed down his breakfast chicken teriyaki and bean sprouts while I nibbled in between yapping. I wish I could do that everyday. Sit down with Augy for a sumptuous meal, spend time at home doing nothing with my brothers and have nice conversations with friends. With the boredom and insanity, my life is still beautiful. I am thankful that I wake up everyday to find that nothing is missing.
Thank you, Lord.
nothing like a yummy breakfast with the love of my life
happy (like nothing is ugly in the world)
i wish every day would be like this
