Ordinary Sunday
I'm supposed to be in bed now so I can have an early start or a decent breakfast while our crazy neighbor's birds are chirping themselves to exhaustion. Do they ever get tired of making those sounds? I guess not. As I was saying, I should be trying to sleep now, but I don't feel like closing my eyes and wasting my time sleeping. There I go again. I regret not getting enough snooze when I'm sleepy and sluggish at work, but I can't make myself sleep early on weekends. I have this desire to make the most out of my time. I don't want to sleep the night away like I did with my whole morning today.
I didn't go out for lunch like what I had anticipated and it drove me to tears. I got upset because Augy didn't reply to my messages earlier so I would have time to prepare before leaving the house. He sent me a message more than an hour after I texted. I was so disappointed. I hate rushing through things. I hate having to take a quick bath, pull whatever piece of clothing I have in the closet and get out of the house all sweaty and out of breath. I understand that he had to attend to his mom's old yaya who is in the hospital and I would never ever want him to give up on things that are really important for a lunch date that we can always reschedule. I was just upset that he didn't text me sooner about our plans. I decided to stay home, but depression took the best of me that I ended up sleeping the whole morning before having lunch with my lola and Gem. I climbed back into bed right after eating and then woke up right in time to watch The Buzz. I am such a tsismosa. I just wanted to take my mind off my disappointing weekend. I ended up fighting with Augy after, but we made up. I am so stressed out that everything that goes wrong just makes my blood go shooting up my head.
I am crossing my fingers that things will get better this week. I hope I can cope with my new schedule. 11 hours of work in one day. 4 days at work. I get 3 days off. One day I will probably devote to sleeping and spending time with my family. Two days for reading blogs, checking Friendster, watching movies, Discovery Channel and Lifestyle and Food Network and bonding with Augy.
The bad thing about being on a diet is salivating over food that you cannot eat. I deal with the cravings by watching cooking shows. I watched one today while waiting for Kris' interview (tsismosa talaga). I caught Anthony Bourdain's show, No Reservations in the Discovery Travel and Living. He went to Malaysia to explore the sights and taste the different cuisines. It fueled my desire to travel again. I told Augy about it and he said we will go to one place in the Philippines this year. Iryn and I want to go to Bohol this year and then one Asian country next year. We're planning to go to Island Cove next month with Karl. I guess it will help in getting my mind off work. I am starting to really hate my job when I know I used to enjoy it. I really did until I started getting more calls than emails and I find it unfair. Things will get better I am sure.
It reminded me of a conversation with Augy about success and fulfillment. I am not successful but for some reason I am happy. I may have those terrible mood swings and bouts of depression but the happy days abound. I know we'll get to where we want to be someday. No rush.
My parents will be home from Mindoro tomorrow. It's lonely without them here. For one, their bedroom's empty and I don't feel comfortable staying in the computer room alone which is adjacent to it. Hehe. I actually miss hearing my dad's booming voice.
It's funny that I have more time to blog now. I used to feel lazy even if I have so many stories to tell about my life. Now that everything's gone boring, I just have the urge to write even in such ungodly hours. Another thing I want to make time for is praying. I don't pray as much as I used to when I know I should. I need guidance more than ever and forgiveness for the pains I cause people now and then. I need to pray more because I don't feel as strong or as courageous as I was back when I spent so much time talking to God and reading the Bible. God and I need to do some serious talking.
random stuff...
I am craving for Tinapayan's caramel bars. I should get some this week when I drop by Market! Market!
I want a venti Java Chip Frappe.
I can't wait to eat pizza with hot sauce and yummy pasta.
I am looking forward to watching the film, The Pursuit of Happyness. I read an interview about the man behind the book and the film in the Reader's Digest and I ended up crying.
After so many months of not watching the show, I made time for Miami Ink (in Discovery Travel and Living) last night. I love it. I don't plan on getting a tattoo, but those artists sure know their art. I can't wait for next Sunday.
