Monday, January 22, 2007

18 Months...
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in two of our favorite weekend haunts: heaven & eggs
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and starbucks
If I've wept for you so much, it's because I preferred you among so many outlined joys.- Rainer Maria Rilke

We have lasted 18 months with love as the glue that keeps us tightly stuck together. We've been through countless squabbles, we've muttered angry, painful words, we've soothed each other's aches and pains, we've endured each other's moods swings (with me doing all the tantrums), we've indulged in food, we fed each other's souls with beautiful literature, we've laughed at numerous jokes and the funniest of anecdotes, we've walked around malls and some interesting places together and yet it feels like we haven't done enough. We have a lot to discover about ourselves, about the people, places and things around us. Just the thought that we will do everything together makes me happy and contented. We may not have all the money we need and want, but we make ends meet in the most marvelous and unbelievable ways. We are good for each other I must say.

feistylittle bitch
8:42 AM

Monday, January 15, 2007

Short, Short Post
I am constantly exhausted and no matter how many stories I have to share and how many adventures I have been up to in the past few weeks, I just can't move my butt to blog. Maybe I am constantly on the move that's why I have no energy left to write when I get home. It's the first month of the year and I am starting to procrastinate. Perfect!

I am excited about summer and my new diet. I can't wait to finally don my swimsuits. They are gathering dust somewhere and are waiting for me to finally, finally hit the beach. I can imagine them grumbling about having to stay in the dark when they are made to be displayed out in the sun. I am determined to lose the (some say imaginary) pounds I gained during the holidays when I became too self-indulgent when it came to desserts. If your dad cooks really well and makes the best, creamy, melt-in-your-mouth leche flan in town, would you still remember your strict diet? I threw mine out the window and I didn't look back. I just sat there spooning leche flan into my mouth. It's a new year. It's a brand new start for a diet, savings, and a new me!

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in my spring/summer outfit

I went to Market! Market! yesterday to spend time with Augy. I was in Starbucks before they opened shop feeling sexy in my striped shirt and a pair of black knickers. I cajoled Augy into taking photos of me. He was a bit exasperated with my urgings for him to do it again, take one more picture or fix the way he takes snapshots of me. He jokingly asked if his job description now includes being a photographer.

We ordered food in Heaven & Eggs. I was disappointed when the waiter informed us that they do not have adobo flakes. We ended up eating breakfast chicken teriyaki which I can only declare as delicious. I love the bean sprouts and the tofu that gave a little crunching sound whenever I took a bite.

The rest of the day we spent on each other and then we took a walk in Serendra going to Krispy Kreme which had so many people waiting in line just for the sweet treats. Augy talked me into coming there early next week instead so we wouldn't have to contend with the crowd. We took pictures, browsed through books in A Different Bookstore and watched little kids roll around in the grass. It's a good place to live in and raise a famiy. Hmm...I can see my future.

We planned to eat dinner, but ran into some people from Xbox who were having a few drinks at Giligan's Island. We ended up staying for a few minutes to chat before heading to Watson's where I purchased my essentials. Augy wanted to go home right after so we hailed a cab after I looked at shoes in two shops. I was able to practice self-control. Cheers for me! I went home without spending every penny I had in my wallet.


feistylittle bitch
10:54 AM

Monday, January 08, 2007

right before my very eyes...
With all the complaints, rants and worldly desires that plague my heart and soul daily, I took the time to reflect on the things and people that I should have appreciated and taken seriously last year. Some things were frustrating, some boring and others, unappreciated and barely noticed. Here are some of them from my list...

My job (or make that jobs). I worked for Expedia for a few months and I felt like I was going on a tour of hell every single night so I can see what awaits me if I constantly sin. I remember sitting by the office's main lobby before my shift would start and text Augy or Gladz for comfort and encouragement. I would call Augy numerous times amidst the hum of the aircon and the beeping sound of the door's security system. I would usually feel sleepy and down in the dumps. Crawling back to bed was more tempting to me than earning moolah. Screw shopping if my heart's not into my only legitimate source of income (asking from mom does not count).

That was the second time I felt horrible about working. The first time was when I worked as a virtual trainer for Xbox and a co-worker and I were assigned in JMT. I ended up physically sick and depressed. My loneliness manifested itself through fever. I did not expect that the second time would give me palpitations. I panicked and resigned without much thought. I look back with no regrets. I find my job now more enjoyable and my co-workers have become my good friends despite the quirky behaviors. Expedia taught me a lot of things like patience and determination. I gritted my teeth through the weeks that I had to study and memorize airline and hotel policies, airport codes, capitals and cities of countries in the world. It was no joke. Some people think working in a call center is no sweat. That's what I find painfully amusing. I am thankful that I went through such a mentally exhausting experience because it proved that I am still able to achieve some things with hard work.

I have let go of wonderful things too because of hasty decisions made by a befuddled mind. Leaving Xbox was one of them. Augy asked me if I wanted to go back in February of last year, but I refused because I was on training for Expedia. I sometimes wish I took the offer because I miss the place, the environment and my many friends who turn out to be men. There's Iryn of course, but I have to admit that my stint with Xbox was made extra memorable by the antics and anecdotes of the guys. Guys are uncomplicated. You can be brutally frank, rowdy and carefree anytime you want without being judged. Gaano ko ba kamahal ang Xbox? I quit being a virtual trainer to take calls with my friends. I turned down being endorsed as a team captain or QA just to go back. Sigh. No regrets though. There are blessings hidden beneath terribly stupid decisions. I would never have met the down-to-earth, funny people I am with now if I stayed. You win some, you lose some. Sa muling pagbabalik, Xbox.

Milenyo. I did not take the storm signal seriously. I have always thought that I shouldn't worry about anything since our village doesn't get flooded like Sampaloc or Malabon, but Typhoon Milenyo taught me a valuable lesson I will never forget. We did not experience wading in floodwaters, but we endured not having electricity and running water for a few days. We had enough water for cooking, washing the dishes, brushing our teeth, cleaning up and flushing our toilets, but we had to make sure that no drop is wasted. I did not take a bath for one day because we were uncertain about where to get the water supply if the typhoon lasted for an extra day or two. Thanks to my parents' ingenuity, we didn't have to worry about our bathrooms stinking to the highest heavens because we have a contraption specially made for storing rainwater.

Typhoon Milenyo taught me not to grumble about making do with the littlest comforts I had then. I realized how important having every member of my family is when our beloved mango tree surrendered to Milenyo's strength. I was in the living room wincing and screaming while my parents and Kit were outside trying to keep the tree from slamming into our house and AUV. I almost suffered a heart attack when Kit had to run to a friend's hardware a block away to get some materials to use in securing the tree. It was not an easy task with roofs being blown away by the strong winds and the knowledge that my brother can get hurt within the ten minutes he was away from my sight. I cursed in front of my parents too for the very first time when Kit climbed up the tree trunk with an itak in one hand to cut off some branches which were pulling our electric and phone lines down. Seeing how vulnerable he was made me hysterical.

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Kit cutting some branches during a lull in the storm...

Kit gets the nastiest scolding in the house most of the time from my parents, lola and me. I find it hard to discipline him nowadays with all the influence he gets from friends and classmates. He is so different from Gem who is so driven and hardworking. He is the only one who can fearlessly fight back when my dad gives him a sermon he thinks he doesn't deserve. Kit may not get excellent grades (because he is such a lazybone) and he might not know what he wants to do with his life yet (as I do not know what to do with mine), but he is not clueless when it comes to survival. I saw with my own two eyes that my brother is no longer the baby who needed me to wash his butt and clean up after him. He is the most unappreciated person in the house though he does the dirty jobs most of the time. Kit gets a lot of sermons from the moment he wakes up until the time he shuts his eyes to sleep, but he accepts everything with a shrug. I never expected the typhoon to bring me to the realization that my dad is not the only man in the house now.

feistylittle bitch
1:25 AM

Thursday, January 04, 2007

Because I Owe It to Myself
We attach our feelings to the moment when we were hurt, endowing it with immortality. And we let it assault us every time it comes to mind. It travels with us, sleeps with us, hovers over us while we make love, and broods over us while we die. Our hate does not even have the decency to die when those we hate die -- for it is a parasite sucking OUR blood, not theirs. There is only one remedy for it [forgiveness].-- Lewis B. Smedes.
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This year, I will give more of what I am given less by others and that is forgiveness. For my happiness and peace of mind, I will forgive people whether they deserve it or not. It will be a struggle on my part because I tend to bottle up feelings, but I am going to take it one day at a time. I will swallow one bitter pill without grumbling and without resentment. In doing so, I am inching my way slowly to be the person I aspire to be.

feistylittle bitch
7:35 AM

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PEARL
26-year-old bitch who dreams of being rich enough to do everything she wants when she wants...
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LOVES

good books. sumptuous food. interesting conversations. travel. beaches. makeup. beauty treatments. music. road trips. educational tv shows. brilliant women. fashion and beauty magazines. romance. junk food. desserts. sunrise. cool, foggy mornings. lots and lots of time to snooze. relaxing weekends.
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HATES

hypocrites. bitches who have no originality. people from the past who just cannot shut their trap and stay in the shadows. creatures who find happiness in the misfortunes of others. assholes definitely.
WISHLIST!
happiness. beauty. love.

hodgepodge of madness, vanity and feistiness from a woman out to discover herself

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