Of eating disorders and dizzy spells
I'm supposed to be in bed catching up on much-needed snooze and not typing another post like my heart tells me to do. I just can't resist it. Words have been forming into sentences inside my head as soon as I woke up this morning. Screw those words for coming out differently now that I decided to write.
I was supposed to write last night about my boring, disappointing and wasted little weekend, but Gem decided that he wants to oblige my request of changing my template. It's not even done yet, but what is a clueless "ate" to do? I am at the mercy of my younger brother. He's in school right now feeling down about having to change sections for the second time because they get shuffled every semester depending on how many students get booted out for failing one or two subjects. The killer subject last semester was Anatomy. This semester it's going to be Microbiology. Gem did pretty well on Anatomy I might say. While his classmates were getting failing grades and super pasang-awa scores, he was getting grades ranging from 90-96. He told me that some of his friends have been staying up last month for two to three consecutive nights just to study for major exams. He would study the night before the exams and I would sometimes wake him up when he dozes off, but he still gets grades that make me proud. I read some of the testimonials from his friends and they call him Lord Gem. Lord Gem because he knows even the pages of his Anatomy book by heart (better than his professor as a friend attested). A friend gave him a picture of them before their sem break and behind it she scribbled, "Anong page ng skeletal?" as a joke.
He and his friends had a farewell party last month in Fisher's Farm, a resort near our village. I feel bad for those who had to transfer to another school just because of Anatomy. I've heard lots of stories about them from my brother. Quite a group of characters. My favorite is Sarah, the girl with the killer hips and a new Ford. When I say killer, I am not exaggerating. My hips cannot compare to hers. I check her Friendster once in a while because I find her amusing. My brother had some of his fun college adventures with them and I encourage him to loosen up. Not loosen up like what I did in college. (What my mummy doesn't know won't hurt her.) This new change in classmates gives me a little twinge of sadness too. I've been emotionally attached to those beer-drinking Nursing students too much. Hehe.
Gem had the jitters last night because he'll be having new classmates. (He slept at past midnight with just enough time to bug me while I was trying to fix my template). What a good way to form friendships. New classmates every semester. Oh well.
Back to why I should be in bed now. I stayed up until dawn yesterday to wait for Augy to get home so we could talk about what time to meet before lunch. He got home from the office at about four in the morning so I ended up sleeping at five. I woke up at seven to wake him up, but he didn't answer my calls so I dozed off until eight o' clock. I went straight to the kitchen to make myself a mug of hot Milo as soon as I got out of bed. My parents were eating breakfast with my lola when I felt the dizzy spell hit me. Not the I-have-fever-dizzy, but the one where I could see the whole kitchen turning round and round before my eyes. I left my mug in the kitchen counter and walked to my bedroom. I found myself gasping for air and I felt my body weakening. I made it just in time to collapse in my bed. My stomach churned like I wanted to spit out vomit anytime. I was thisclose to fainting. I didn't tell my lola because she'll accuse me of starving myself then feed me lots of fattening rice and ulam. I won't tell my mom because she'll give me a long sermon on the importance of sleep. I waited until two in the morning yesterday for her to finish working on some files so I can use the computer after. She'll surely blame that for my poor health condition. I am guilty of depriving myself of food and rest. I read from the newspaper that if you work out more than you should and eat so little everyday, you may have an eating disorder. I am just scared of gaining weight, but I also eat a lot of calorie-laden food on occasions. After yesterday's not-so-secret episode, I should be a little concerned with my health. I started eating two pieces of pandesal smattered with Lady's Choice peanut butter with rice crispies for breakfast today. I normally don't eat breakfast, but I felt really famished. That's one small step.
I love my new template though it needs serious tweaking. Gem found it in one of those websites last night. I was giddy with happiness when I saw it because I love pearls. I love how the template looks. It's perfect for me. I don't miss my old violet template that much anymore.
